Again it was a bad day where my woes continue. I just can’t understand what I want. I just have my mind full of thoughts but i can’t figure out what I’m thinking about. I have lot of things to bother about. It’s all because of my desire. You must understand that how dangerous a desire is. ONe thing I’ve understood that never listen to what others say or others advice you, but sometimes you have to listen to them otherwise you will be fucked up. In my case, i’m fucked up with both the cases. I mean got screwed up twice, one is for listening what they said and other is for not listening to what they said. It’s totally confusing and keep on bothering me. Also i think i have commited a sin and now its following me. May be someone has cursed me and it follows me. Just thinking for how long this woe will continue and waiting for the time to rest and keep my mind calm without any thoughts. Will wait untill i relax. Grr.. My life sucks.
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Woes Continues
Its Do or Die for me
Well, i am not working in MNC. I have just entered this corporate world. Now i can see the real professinalism, Profesional way of dressing, way of behaviour, way in everything. I see lot of difference in myself. In many ways, my life has changed a lot, the changes started since i start blogging. Thanks to my friend marc who was the reason for blogging. I have always expressed my gratitude to him and it will continue. I’m saying this because i earn money out of it. I earned a lot before but now it has reduced 1/10. I mean i get only 30$ per month, to be open. May be you think i’m lying.
And i have been assigned to one project intially and after 1 week my manager asked me whether i am ready to come out of that project which i am assigned . I said him i can work in any environment and i;m ok with anything. He said me to think and tell.
The next day i was not invited to kick of meeting of the project which i was assigned to. This was a real shock for me. May be i was kicked out of that project. Here comes tragedy, announcement of interview for those who are not mapped into project and my name was included in that. Here comes another tragedy, i heard few mintues before my name was taken out from project , two girls went and made a complaint on somebody telling that some guys passing comments on them. What is the inference? I’m worried . But still i am ready to face anything. After all my life never goes in the way i wanted it to go. It just drives me somewhere , i don’t get satisfied with. Its because i have more desire.
Want to have Peace?
Everybody is looking for peace. For that, peace has to be inside each of us.
Do you have any of these inside you ?
1. Jealousy
2. Hatred
3. Grudge
4. Revenge
5. Unforgiveness
6. Selfishness
7. Pride
8. Greed
9. Anger
Check it out. If you have any one of them inside you, you will never have peace.If we can get rid of them from within , we can have peace.
Smoking or drinking will never give you peace or relieve you of tension. Tick, which of the above listed is inside you and work on that directly and see the result.
Let peace be with you
I am so insecure. Wherever I go, what ever I do, I feel so insecure and not comfortable. Moreover, my mind keep on tell me that it wont work so do not worry about the results. I just cannot understand whether it is a feel of pessimist. I thought I’m a optimist and I just do whatever I feel like doing and just step into work, but my work fails not at the end, it just fail in the beginning itself.
I cannot understand whether it is a bad time for me or I am taking only the negative side of the happening. It is all because of two things. One is when I have a choice and other one is when I do not get any chance. If I have a choice, it is tough for me to decide. I think that my decision will go wrong and this delay taking decision and eventually everything fails. Second thing is I have to wait and wait and wait till the end sitting and watching others passing by me and passing so ahead of me. I just can look at them and feel what the bad thing I did is and what they did not. Life is so insecure for me now, it may look to you that I have everything but still I feel the emptiness and I know what my problems are. I just don’t give a damn about my life. I will say to the problem that reaches me – “sit in my pocket as long as you want but don’t forget that I have a hole in it”
